It’s 3:17AM now, in the middle of the night. And at this point of time, i have a sudden thought, a sudden decision, a sudden rush of feelings is going through my body.
I think i’ve finally snap out of it. I think i had enough. I think it’s time to grow up and fucking face reality now. Yes, i still want fun. But, how much fun do i need. It’s infinite. To be honest, i don’t really know what i’m typing about now. I spoke to myself just now. I don’t know what’s really growing through my mind everyday. What do i want. Fuck this shit seriously. I don’t know what i’m doing everyday. I’m 19 going on 20 this year. Young? Not so i would say. I think i finally woke up from that ever ringing ‘wake up call’. I finally hit the button. I’m waking up. Yes. Now the next step is to brush my teeth. Yes, brush my teeth, cleaning all the dirt away. Yes! That’s the first step. If you get my drift. If you don’t, then yeah don’t bother continue reading. Just fuck this shit. What the fuck am i typing about? Wait no, i want to continue. Next, i take a shower. I put on new clothes, or rather, clean clothes. Yeah, something new, and clean is next. Then i have brunch. What should i have for brunch. Should i cook or should i just whip up something instant? No, i take the effort to cook because i woke up early this time. So there i go, a wonderful filling brunch. And out i go, i left my house.
Question is, where am i heading to? I don’t know.
Okay honestly, what the fuck am i typing about. Fuck, i don’t know. I just, don’t feel the same anymore. Right from that day, when we watched the tv, i know. I’m not quite sure anymore.
Goodnight world.
Yours truely,
Petty Pancake
